seven years...

yea i'm seven years young this day. happy birthday. special thanks to deutzy, fatlipz, trigger, blonde, and nico for letting me stay. for all the transformation, for the music. though it's kindav getting more and more blurry each day between us, you'll never be forgotten. gra, go deo. for all the hointach days, for all those million ups and few downs, bouichas. salamat mga tsong. namimiss ko na kayo, sobra. pero it seems like everything is over. i can't take back the shallow heart that can give me an extreme emotion every other minute. sana nga naging ganun na lang ako, ganun katitingkad na kulay ng buhay na tanging ang teenage maine lang ang makakalikha, siyempre with your presence. pero iba na ngayon. anlabo. the more you learn the deeper your heart will be and the harder you'll feel satisfied and happy. haaay, pitong taon na, and the first four years of this were four of the best years of my life. ahhh let me cry guys. thanks again. thanks for helping me to become a real woman. i can say i am right now. i just hope one of these days, i can touch you with bare hands and bare eyes, i can see you standing infront me.

save my soul, i need help.

your heart will be broken though it was never been whole --- is it possible? 

what's this? darn.

again, i'm a broken hearted shit.  i don't know if i still like this feeling for kevin roy. damn. i can't understand this shit. it's a strange emotion though. hindi ko kase alam kung natutuwa ako looking at kevin with his family o nasasaktan ako. i'm touched, honestly, looking at jan's profile, but i don't think this is a plain thouch. i think the last time i felt this way was with brian couple of years back. is it the feeling of acceptance and happiness? telling yourself that the one you love belongs to someone, and she'll have him forever? their kid, she's a perfect combination of the couple. with kevin's nose and jan's eyes. so sweet. ahh  would you mind if i'll cry? oh yes, fuck i'm crying right now while writing this. so then i'm hurt. but happy? possible? i don't know and i don't undersand. it's always been a mystery. when i haven't opened the profile of jan yet, i was scared, i'm almost shaking. i'm afraid i'm not ready to see what i'm about to see. i saw some simple pictures of the three of them, and i felt so strange. paulitulit kong sasabihin, it's strange. and the pic of kevin with jan, ibang iba yun sa mga pics ni kevin with some girl fans. damn, he's so much inlove. i'm hurt yet love him more for that. ang hirap no? sobrang hirap. can anyone save me from this hearache? please. 

manong part 1

"see that perfect throw? that's something only bandmates could have."

i read dudette's blog about manuel and i thought of doing the same thing, i'm a bit shy though. coz i know it will be nothing but a corny and silly article.

anyway, i picked some lines fron the song i made bout a year ago and yes, it's a manong inspired song dude. adik no?

"he kept me chasing the sunrise of tommorow

to catch the scenes of moments to borrow

he hit me with the visions of wisdom and wit

to see the futility of the glistening shits

 

he uncovered the land where my music is singin

hemade it all without even knowing..."

 

 

and this is my fave line:

 

"in his capacity to make everything fine,

too bad he could never be mine..."

 

bitter... nyaiks!

 

for now, eto muna ang intro ko sa mahabang kwento para sa nagiisang manong. uwi pa kong bikol eh. bye! teka bitin eh, basta maghintay sa wala baka sakaling meron. 

 

 

sayang

just got home from handle bar, razorback gig. whew! mon and avon should've been there. they played loadz of cover songs that we must also learn to play. haay. another kick ass night with couple  of boars and bunch of aliens, ahehe. foreigners ;-) aaah! i want blues! i want blues! i miss munting paraiso, banyo song and stuffs. manong, parang gusto ko nang maniwala at totohanin na there's something between us sa past life. baka nga ako yung alaga mong pusa, o ikaw yung alaga kong iguana. whatcha think? o sweet ka lang talaga. no? o baka tayo yung alagang salagubang ni andres bonifacio, hindi kaya?

mpeeps. miss you so much guys, see you after ten days or more.

Gipetto, hello! ano na? wala ba tayong business jan?

bikol, wait, just wait. i'm comin' and i'm all yours.

maine! umayos ka na, teen ager ka na! hehehehek.